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Bad Blogger, Bad!

Ermahgerd, you guys.

I suck, I know.

It’s been like… a MONTH since I’ve posted anything.  Seriously?  A whole month??!


Anyway, it’s not like I’ve had a hot second, to be honest.

Things have been crazy around here.  The husband and I went to a wedding in California a couple weeks back, and that was amazing.  I’m ashamed to admit that until recently, I’d never traveled west of Iowa – being the true Midwesterner that I am – so seeing real mountains (mostly from the plane, ha), vineyards, and real California hills and countryside was pretty amazing.  The wedding was beautiful, and right in the heart of Sonoma, and we were able to visit and do some touristy things around San Francisco before we flew out, too.

Work has also been kicking my narrow behind, as well.  My boss left the company in mid-May, leaving me to handle pretty much everything in her stead.  There have been all sorts of changes going on with my company – good changes! – but I’ve been completely swamped.  The good news is that the hard work and long days have paid off, and I have been offered my boss’ old position.  It’s a pretty nice promotion, and the extra income will definitely be helpful, too!  Yay!

At the moment, I’m busy working on some details for my next support group meeting, and staying involved with RESOLVE.  Things are going really well there, too!  Our group is up to like 13 members, and I feel the support really making a difference.

It doesn’t sound like a lot, but with work taking up so much of my time, and trying to just plain live my married life the rest of the time, it’s been a pretty full month.

Things are good over here, and I’m not dead.  Figured I’d better update to at least say that much.  🙂

More soon, friends!




In The Works…

I like ellipses.

They create drama, suspense… sexual tension, perhaps?

Anyway, I didn’t use the ellipsis in the title of this post for any of those reasons.  It was just my natural inclination to taper off a phrase like “in the works…”

I know.  I’m weird.  It’s kind of my thing.  Sorry I’m not sorry.

So, what’s in the works for me, you may be asking?

A few things, actually!

First on my list – community involvement.  I’m working through the details of possibly creating a local infertility support group.  Recently, I’d been thinking that I could really benefit from interacting with people outside of my usual bubble of IRL and online Infertility-Friends, but when I went to look for a local group in this area… Nada.

There are some in other larger cities nearby, but nothing that wouldn’t require at least a half hour plus drive to get there.  Boo.

And so, I started looking into the process of starting my own.  I mean, I know a lot of people here in the Toledo area who are going through infertility treatments, medical testing, and all sorts of other things, and I can’t help but wonder if maybe they wouldn’t benefit from the option of some face-to-face support, too.

I am excited about the prospect, and will definitely update here when/if this thing gets off the ground!

Let’s see… what else?

It’s been nearly three weeks since my last confession blog post… Forgive me!  There really hasn’t been anything major happening in that time, to be honest.  I don’t have much of an excuse for not updating the blog.  It’s been cold and snowy here in Northwest Ohio, and I’ve been hibernating as much as possible.  I’ve also been working a TON, which is a nice change from the slow pace of the office in December.

All of these things have led me to just sort of… chill out.  Which is good; it’s something I’ve been trying to do more of, honestly.  I need to learn to relax, and I’m starting to get the hang of it.  There is still some anxiety in my life, and I’m working through it, but overall, I think I’m starting to manage stress a little better than I have in the past.  Nerves no longer keep me bed- (and bathroom-) ridden, so that’s also a nice change.

(By the way, sometimes for me, chilling out involves reading a good book, which I do often.  Occasionally, it involves binge-watching a TV show.  From beginning to end.  In one week.  I just did that with Breaking Bad, and let me tell you this:  that show is not great for relaxation, in case anyone was wondering if meth production and family/legal drama/chaos would put them in a state of zen.  #TheMoreYouKnow)

Oh!  I’ve had some things change with Dr. McStabby and some new things in store for my TCM and acupuncture treatments, which I’ll update in another post.  I will just say here that I’m happy with the direction things are taking, even if I’m not totally happy with the way my body is responding 100% of the time.  I feel that I’m being heard, and that my concerns are met with interest, and that they are handled quickly and appropriately.  That makes all the difference in the world, and some of my past RE’s could take a page from that book.

Hmm… any other updates I can share?

Well, I’m not pregnant.  That I know of, of course.  Ha.  I’m being very consistent with my herbs, and slightly less consistent with my vitamins and supplements.  I’m trying, but sometimes I forget.

DAMMIT.  Like right now!  Hang on… have to take a few pills.

Seriously.  I need to set a phone alarm or something… Anyway, I’ve been working on being better about that.  There are certain supplements that should be taken certain times in a day, and I try to make sure I’m doing that.  I fail sometimes, and that’s okay.

I’ve managed to gain some weight, which is nice.  Not a whole lot, just a few pounds, but it’s making a difference that I can see and feel.  I know part of that is due to some help on McStabby’s part, but part of it is because I’ve been less strict with my diet in the past two months.

I’m no longer restricting any gluten, and I’ve added dairy back in, in a big way.  I would like to eventually get most dairy out of my diet altogether, but for now, the added fat from raw, organic whole milk, cheeses, and yogurt is really good for me.  I switched to Irish butter, organic and grass-fed, a while back, and I couldn’t be happier.  I’m using coconut oil whenever possible as well, so there are plenty of healthy fats being consumed.

As for gluten, while I was avoiding it, I didn’t notice much – if any – changes.  I am clearly not intolerant in any way, and I figure as long as I’m doing my best to pursue organic, non-GMO sources, it’s a good thing for me (and my weight).

I’ve been holding my own with sugar-consumption, too.  I do still have a bit of chocolate here and there, and I put honey in my chai in the morning.  I’ll even have a (organic cane sugar, no-HFCS) orange pop now and then.  It’s not so bad, really.

So, honestly, that’s about it.  I’ll update again soon on the changes I’m making in my TCM treatment, but other than that, I’m just here… maintaining.  I hope you are all doing the same, staying warm if it’s winter where you are (and staying cool if you’re Down Under!), and enjoying life for all the quirks and oddities it throws your way.

Take care, friends.  🙂


Oh, one last thing:  When I was Googling earlier, I came across this animation completely by mistake, and I found it fascinating.  So here.  Enjoy, and maybe learn something today, especially since this blog post was more word-dump than informational or entertaining.  😉



Digestive Pyrotechnics

Friday, April 12th, 2013.  CD31, ??DPO?

Hiya folks!

Sorry I’ve been such an absentee blogger lately.  I really haven’t had much to report, but figured I should probably check in so no one thinks I died or anything.  🙂

Here’s what’s what:

  • I’m currently on day 31 of this stupid cycle, which is three days longer than I figured it would last…
  • I’m pretty sure I didn’t ovulate, or if I did, it was so weak that my temps barely made it out of pre-ovulatory range.
  • I felt a little PMS-y for a few days, and this morning my temp dropped way, way down.
  • I know I couldn’t be pregnant, because I never got a positive OPK, and basically didn’t feel like having sex at all.  I’ve also caved in and tested, and of course, BFN.
  • I’m trying to be optimistic about the cycle ahead, but Metformin is kicking my ass, I’m terrified of everything on my plate, and I know I’m losing weight that I can’t afford to lose.  It’s a little bleak, but I’m hanging in there.
  • That being said, my hormones are obviously suffering… just like my sex drive.
  • And my digestion.
  • I’ve recently upped my Met dosage to 1500mg per day.
  • Coincidentally, I have also recently begun suffering from what could only be described as digestive pyrotechnics.
  • Like, shit just got real.
  • Like, I called off work (and canceled acupuncture!) one day this week because I wasn’t sure I could get off the bathroom floor, real.
  • Like, a literal shit-show.
  • I really need to feel better and more like the healthy human being I am, instead of feeling like a constantly-hungover college freshman whose diet is limited to Mountain Dew, ramen noodles, and Taco Bell.
  • I’m going to start referring to my frequent bathroom trips as “border runs”.  Ha.

  • Anyway, I emailed Dr. F and asked what to do, and she suggested splitting up my dosage over three meals each day.  That’s been somewhat better, but I still feel like poo.  Literally.
  • Once the next cycle gets underway, I plan to start taking Femara and Gonal F to see how that works for me.
  • We may do an IUI if the cycle goes well.
  • I found out from the awesome patient coordinator at Dr. F’s office that my insurance will pay for monitoring pretty much without fail, even though they won’t pay for injectable meds any longer.  That’s a huge relief!!
  • Work is keeping me super busy, which is the best thing for me right now.  Distraction.
  • The husband works in the auto industry, and his shift changes constantly.  He has been working nights for the past four months, and that has been difficult – especially on the baby-making front!  He just changed to days, so that will be MUCH better for both of us!
  • We’re talking about going to the gym a couple times a week together, which I’m looking forward to… or I will be, once I feel like I have control of my intestines.
  • We just planned a fun local-ish vacation weekend for right around the Fourth of July, and I’m excited for that!
  • My best friend had her baby, and I’m going to visit her this weekend.  I can do this, I can do this, I can do this.
  • I am attending a very important baby shower two days after my due date.  I can do this, I can do this, I can do this.
  • I’m trying really hard to forget that this is April, the month of my due date, but someone out there remembers that I was once pregnant and keeps mailing me baby formula samples, and coupons for breast pumps.  I don’t know who you are, but I hate you.
  • Oh, and National Infertility Awareness Week is the week of my due date.  *facepalm*
  • I really feel like the next cycle needs to get started already so I can get through the rest of this month without having a woe is me breakdown.

So that’s it.  Not a whole lot of news at the moment, but hopefully the next cycle will bring about some excitement.

And distraction.



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