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Woman, Control Thyself!

Wednesday, May 29th, 2013.  CD18, 4DPIUI.

I’m a patient person.

I guess I would have to be, right?  If this journey has taught me anything, it’s that things don’t always happen on the schedule you prefer.

Though, while I’m patient, I’m also very much aware of how little control I have over this process.

That itself makes me antsy in my pantsy.

There are some women out there who can go through an entire medicated cycle serenely following the doctor’s orders, taking each tiny uterine twinge with a grain of salt, and generally not over-analyzing the whole process.  These are the women who wait the full fourteen days after their IUI to bust out their one and only pee-stick, and accept the results of the test without question.

I AM NOT THIS WOMAN.

I ask questions.  I check up on things.  And double check.  And sometimes triple check.  I follow orders if I think they suit my situation, and sometimes alter them a teensy bit if I think I know better.  I assume any little gas bubble is my perfect little embryo implanting itself in my uterine lining like the itty-bitty allstar it obviously is.

I analyze.  And over-analyze.  I Google, and chart, and blog, and hit up the forums online.

I also don’t wait until The Safe Zone Test Day to find out if the cycle is a success or failure…

I test out the trigger like it’s my JOB.

If you’re new to fertility treatment protocols or the affects of certain medications, let me give you a quick rundown:

In some medicated cycles, after a woman has taken pills (Femara, Clomid) or injections (Gonal F, Menopur, Bravelle, Follistim, etc.) to stimulate their ovaries into producing mature follicles, the doctor will have them use a trigger shot to cause ovulation to occur within a predictable amount of time (36 hours, typically).

A trigger shot is usually a form of HCG, which is the pregnancy hormone.  Ovidrel, Pregnyl, and Novarel are common trigger medications, and these are usually injected with a short needle into the tummy fat, or with a bigger needle into the “hip” (read: BUTT MUSCLE).

When you inject HCG into your system, it causes ovulation, which is what you want, but it also causes you to give false positives on any home pregnancy test (HPT) that you might take.  This hormone in your system will wear off after a few days, but until that point, you should not consider any HPT you take to be a true positive.

There are some who “test out the trigger”, which means that they (I) take an HPT every day to watch the false-positive test lines get lighter and lighter until they fade to white completely.  Once there is no longer a danger of a false positive, the patient in question (ME) can assume that any positive test result she receives thereafter is a true positive, and not the effects of the medication.

This seems to me like the only possible way I can maintain any semblance of control over what’s going on with my body for two straight torturous weeks.

I usually wait to start till around 7DPO, knowing that trigger shots tend to stick around in my system for well over a week.  This cycle, however, I figured I’d go ahead and start early.  Like three days past trigger early.

Yep.  I’m that girl.

So that’s that.

I am a trigger-tester-outer, and I’ll not apologize for it.

It’s what I need to do to feel like I am participating in this process in some way… It’s a way to center myself each morning, knowing that my body is doing what it’s supposed to do in removing the trigger-caused HCG from my system to make way for the true HCG that would be caused by an embryo implanting in my uterine lining.

Some women float placidly along through their Two Week Wait, enjoying their days, blissfully unaware of what may or may not be happening in their uterine cavity at any given moment.  I imagine these are also the women who wear white yoga pants and dance on the beach during their periods, but I digress…

Other women pee in a cup every morning, and spend an absurd amount of time with their faces entirely too close to strips of peed-on paper, analyzing them and looking for any indication that their HCG level may have increased instead of decreased overnight.

I’m the latter, take me or leave me.

Happy Hump Day to you all, and I wish you all the mythical peaceful optimism that comes so naturally to some…

I also wish you realism, and hope that your pee-stick mania doesn’t lead to any awkward moments in the bathroom with your husband asking why there’s a cup of pee next to his toothbrush.

To each their own, just be sure to clean up your bodily fluids thusly.  🙂

 

Pee-Stick Addiction is a real thing, and its sufferers are real people. Like me. And this blogger here.

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Floating Away

Monday, June 4th, 2012.  CD15, 2DPIUI.

I feel like crap.

I somehow contracted a lovely summer head cold, which is making my life miserable.  On top of that, this week is probably one of the Busiest Weeks In History at work, due primarily to the fact that I am covering for another recruiter while he is out of town.

It wouldn’t be such a big thing to take on his work in addition to mine, but I am also training four new minions for the team.  Thankfully, most of them seem to be getting the hang of things.

I really wish I could take some cold medicine, but the only stuff I can take makes me SOOOO sleepy.  I also don’t think I can take much during the TWW since the doctor told me to basically behave as though I’m pregnant until told otherwise.

And so, I’m miserable and whiny and stuffy, and my head feels like a balloon.  My ears hurt, and I have to be on the phone all day.  Waaah.

Perhaps I need to re-record my office voicemail:  “Hi.  This is Tracy.  I’b sick.  I hope you dob’t deed be for buch today, as I ab currently ibpersodating a bucus factory.  I’ll get back to you just as sood as I cad.”

Anyway, to recap the weekend:  I got my trigger shot at the clinic on Friday – the same day as my temperature took a nice little dip.  The doc seemed to think I may have ovulated one of my 3 mature follicles at that point, and she gave me the trigger to ensure that I released the rest ASAP.

The IUI was Saturday morning, and it went as usual.  The husband’s counts were pretty good:  39 million post-wash, with 98% motility!  Not too shabby!

My temp went up on Saturday morning, and up even more on Sunday, so FertilityFriend thinks I ovulated on Friday.  I really wasn’t expecting to have the IUI so soon, and thought we would have at least one more day to set aside some Sexy Time, but the rushed nature of this cycle caught me off guard.

Ugh.  Maybe the software is right…  Either way, our Sexy Timing wasn’t spectacular, as we didn’t get busy at all for a few days before the IUI.  We managed the day after the IUI, so hopefully between those two encounters, maybe we caught the 2 eggs that were lagging behind the first.

I’m just not feeling this cycle.  I feel like the timing has been off the whole month due to the increased meds, and that I progressed too quickly and caught the LH surge too late.  I also feel like this horrid cold is going to somehow hinder my fertility further.  I haven’t started testing out the trigger yet, and I’m not sure if I am even going to start this month.

I just feel so down about this whole process today.  I want this to work so I don’t have to move on to yet another new RE.  I want to be done giving blood and peeing on things and taking pills that make me sweat/cry/batshit crazy.

Ugh.  That seems to be the theme of today:  Ugh.

I hope you all are having a better day than this blogger!

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Jumping the Gun

Friday, June 1st, 2012.  CD12.

Well today was interesting…

At my monitoring appointment, I was informed that the three measurable follicles I had on Wednesday were ready to burst today.  The doctor took my blood and promptly gave me my trigger injection, along with instructions to report back there tomorrow morning for the IUI.

Jeez!  I guess increasing the dosage of meds really made a difference!

So anyway, tomorrow it is, I guess.  I can’t help but feel a little nervous that this is too soon.  Especially since I’m getting the trigger 24 hours before the procedure.  I typically ovulate right around the 36 hour point after getting the HCG injection, so I hope this cycle moves a little faster to coincide nicely with the turkey basting.

Tomorrow should be a good day.  It’s the birthday of a dear friend of the husband’s and mine, it’s my half-birthday (what? you have one too!), and there’s a graduation party tomorrow afternoon that I’m excited to attend.

Oh, and if I can squeeze it in, I might be getting a consultation for the super-secret tattoo I want to get.  Squeeeeeeee!!

Soooo… yeah!  Excited about tomorrow, but nervous about the results in a couple weeks.  Same ol’ story.

Have a great weekend, friends!

(Here’s a Pin that made me giggle today:)

Oh Draco…

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12DPO Trigger Progression

Saturday, May 19th, 2012.  CD26, 12DPIUI.

Well, it’s been 14 days since the trigger shot, and I think it’s finally out of my system.  Sheesh.

I really had hopes of seeing the lines start to get darker, instead of just lighter and lighter and fading away completely.  Ugh.

Well, on a positive note, I almost tossed my cookies on the patio of a restaurant last night when some old dude started eating his fries with vinegar.  Blech!  I was surprised how much the smell effected me.  And then later, at the baseball game, I swear I could still smell the vinegar… I also teared up during the national anthem.  Totally weird.

Oh, and my boobs?  They caught up with the cycle and finally started to torture me, as per usual.  Of course.

AND my temp appears to be in a free-fall.  Great.

I guess I figure that if I were pregnant, I would probably be getting BFPs before symptoms… right?

Oh I just don’t know.

I’m going to go clean the house and then get outside and enjoy this beautiful, sunny weekend.

Peace out, girl scouts.  🙂

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