Tag: Ovidrel trigger
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New Year, New You.

Wednesday, January 2nd, 2013.  CD12.

How did you spend your New Year’s Eve?

I spent the night on the couch, in complete misery, because of some lovely leftover Femara side-effects from which I’m currently suffering.  Things are feeling a whole lot better today, but the past 48 hours have been rough.

Thankfully, that issue does not seem to have knocked the whole cycle off track, and I’m feeling pretty good about things today.

I have one lead follicle that, when I trigger tonight, should hopefully be around 23mm when I trigger tonight, and those two twelves may have made it to maturity by tonight, too.  The husband is off work until Friday, and even then he works day shifts on Friday and Saturday, so that will make SexyTime much easier to schedule this month.

With the stress of the holidays behind me, I feel like this is a much easier cycle to handle.  Yes, there have been some problems, and yes, the beginning of the cycle falling right during the Christmas/anniversary/housewarming/New Year’s chaos was rough, but I feel good.  Happy.  Positive, even.

I feel like 2013 is going to be the year of the Take Home Baby.

Not just for me, but for so many of us who have been struggling for so long…

Hang in there, friends.  This is the year it all changes.  🙂

 

 

 

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Uncoordinated

Sunday, December 9th, 2012.  CD13, 1DPO…?

This cycle feels like it’s been a little bit of a fiasco already.  I mean, don’t get me wrong, I was thrilled to get the exciting news of the TWO great-looking follies on Friday!

It just seems like my head hasn’t really been in the game…

Maybe I’m just experiencing what others call “relaxation”…?

HAHAHAHA.

No, seriously.  That’s not it… like, at ALL.

I’ve just been busy.  And preoccupied.  And wrapped up in so many other things.

Part of me wonders if I might be trying to protect myself from getting too attached to this cycle, especially as it’s our first official cycle of really trying, with meds and everything, after our miscarriage in September.

I just hope that whatever is going on with me isn’t some kind of self-sabotage.

Honestly, I’m scared.

I’m scared to death that this cycle is going well.

I’m terrified that it could work.

I’m horrified that I could possibly end up pregnant.

And it’s that point where the nightmare version of the story takes over… As if it wasn’t frightening enough possibly getting pregnant, the thought of possibly losing another baby is the worst thing imaginable.

I’m so used to hearing “No”, seeing “negative”, and getting “I’m sorry…” that I really don’t know what to do when things go well.

I want to be happy, celebrate, but I can never shake that feeling of waiting for the other shoe to drop.

So far, it always has dropped.

I guess I just need to pray for flying shoes…

Anyway, I triggered yesterday morning and the husband and I had all of Friday night and Saturday together.  Technically, we should errrm… spend some time together today as well, but he is resting up for work, and I am heading out shortly to our nephews’ co-birthday party.  By the time I get home, he will be walking out the door, so I’m not sure if it’s going to happen or not.

In my theme of continuing the uncoordinated-ness of this cycle, I’ve sucked at temping.  I’ve been sleeping crazy hours and waking up at odd times.  It’s taking me some time to get used to being in the new house, and none of our things are placed exactly where they need to be yet.

I don’t have a nightstand.  My thermometer is always floating around the room somewhere (and yes, I even stuck it under the mattress a few nights).  I haven’t been the world’s best basal body temp-er, which is another reason why I feel so blah about this cycle.

Last cycle, the one where I got that spectacular BFP, I temped like it was my JOB.

I got that beautiful triphasic chart, and I was all over the FertilityFriend message boards analyzing every single thing.  Got a BFP.  Perfect.

Then we miscarried, and now I’m having trouble getting back into the swing of things.  I suck at temping.  I’ve stayed away from the message boards altogether, I’ve been slacking on my prenatal vitamins… I don’t even know if I’m going to test out the trigger.

Ugh.

Get it together, woman!

I’m trying.

I’m trying.

I’ll get there…

Maybe the off cycle is the one that sticks… who knows?

Either way, I feel like this Christmas is going to be a memorable one, as my test date is just a couple days beforehand.

I really don’t want to close out the year the same way as 2011.  And 2010.  And 2009…

Oh lord.

I just realized something great…

My test date is the Mayan Apocalypse.

 

HAHAHAHA… That’s just perfect.

Uncoordinated though it may be, I do love this quirky little life.  😉

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Double Trouble!

Friday, December 7th, 2012.  CD11.

I just got back from my first – and only! – monitoring appointment for this cycle.

Apparently double the Femara plus a few days of Menopur was just the trick!

I have a follicle measuring 17 on the left, and a 17.5 on the right (that NEVER happens!!), so just one more Menopur injection tonight, trigger tomorrow morning, and then scrambling the eggs all weekend.  😉

I’m starting to think maybe that astrologer was onto something…

Oh God… I hope he was.

XOXO, friends!

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