#StartAsking About Little Lives Gone Too Soon

Three. You might have been three years old today. We planned and wished and prayed and worked hard for you, but you couldn’t stay.  You were gone before we ever had a chance to know you.  We miss you every day. You’re inked in our skin, and written on our hearts. You have a sister

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Something has happened.

..No.  Not that.

Something else, though.

Something amazing.

Like bacon-dipped-in-Nutella amazing.

But maybe even better…

Do you remember back in April, when RESOLVE released its National Infertility Awareness Week theme for 2013, Join The Movement?

Every blogger and their infertile brother wrote a post (or posts) on their interpretation of said theme, including yours truly.

Well, the lovely folks at RESOLVE have been reading through those posts since early May, choosing their favorites and narrowing down their top five.

Top.  Five.

Out of over 130 other blogs submitted.

And guess what?

This blogger right here has been chosen as part of that group.

I am one of the top five nominees for the Hope Award for Best Blog!

I can’t even believe how amazing that is!

I’m just a girl who rants about her busted plumbing on the interwebs… I’m no one!  Nothing!

I’m just one of the barren masses!

I’m one in a whole slew of other women (and men!) doing the same thing, albeit they are expressing themselves more eloquently than I could ever aspire to do myself.

Apparently though, someone over at RESOLVE liked what I had to say… And I’m not arguing.

I’m honored and humbled and just plain happy about it.

Thank you, RESOLVE!

Now here’s the fun part, the part where you come in.

The winner of the Hope Award for Best Blog is chosen by the number of votes they receive from the public.

Voting opens Wednesday, July 10th, and one vote per email address is allowed.

Voting ends on July 17th, and the winner will be announced in August.

The winner of the Hope Award for Best Blog will win a trip to New York City to the 16th annual Night of Hope dinner in November, where they will be presented with their award in front of a big, fancy, dressed-up audience!

In New York!

An awards dinner, y’all!

Isn’t that just so fancy-schmancy you could die??

Needless to say, I’m pretty excited to be nominated, though I know that the competition is quite stiff.

The other nominees are inspiring bloggers and writers (one of them has written a book!), and I’m honored even to be on the same list with them.

I won’t pretend to be confident about my chances at this thing, but I know that I also won’t ever forget the realization that what I wrote meant something to someone; someone who thought it was worthy of sharing with the whole Infertility World, and possibly worthy of winning an amazing award.

That’s pretty terrific, right there.

And so, I am asking you, my friends, my family, my sisters of the busted pipes…

Will you vote for me?

Click here to go to the voting site, and be sure to read the other bloggers’ entries, too!

One vote per email address is allowed, and sharing of this link on social media is encouraged – any publicity for the infertile masses is a good thing, and these blog posts are the cream of the advocating crop!

Thank you all – so much – for your encouragement and support…

…And for your votes.

Because you love me.

Don’tcha?  😉

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Don’t Ignore… Support.

April 24th, 2012.  CD1.

I wasn’t planning to write this.  At least not until I returned from my trip…

I’ve come to really rely on the support of others throughout this journey, and I really needed the catharsis of blogging more than usual this month.

This week is National Infertility Awareness Week, and this year’s theme is “Don’t Ignore Infertility“.

Not that I’ve had the opportunity to ignore infertility this week… Nothing like a negative blood pregnancy test to make you painfully aware of your infertility.

Our beta was negative.

Or, more accurately, it was technically negative.

Let me ‘splain.

Although I hadn’t mentioned it here, I’ve seen a couple of faint second lines on some early home pregnancy tests in the past couple of days.  I am usually very cautious about believing them, but I was overly-cautiously optimistic this time.

I started spotting on Saturday morning.  Just for a half hour or so.  Then nothing… Until Sunday afternoon.  More spotting.  Nothing on Monday, and a negative HPT this morning…

I started to bleed this morning while getting ready to head to the clinic for the beta.

By the time I arrived, I was in full flow.  The doctor took my blood for the pregnancy test, and then sent me back for a Cycle Day 1 ultrasound.  The nurses who performed the ultrasound were concerned that I might actually be pregnant…

When the doctor called me later to confirm the results of the blood test, she said that they had all come to the agreement that this must have been a chemical pregnancy.  My HCG levels were low, and technically negative, but everything else pointed to pregnancy.

A chemical pregnancy is a fertilized egg that fails to implant.  Technically not a miscarriage, but close enough.

The good news is that the eggs and sperm appear to be getting along, they just didn’t move in together at the right time.  Perhaps next month they’ll get it right.

I’ll start back up on the same protocol on Thursday, and expect another IUI in early May.

This is where the whole “Don’t Ignore… Support.” thing comes in.

I need you.  My friends, my family, complete caring strangers who take the time to come here and read about our many struggles and few triumphs.  People who send up prayers and offer words of encouragement.  Fellow humans who take time out of their busy days to think about little ol’ me and my busted uterus.

I’m not the only one who needs you, however.  One in eight people in the US are currently going through what I’m going through – or worse.  Which one of your coworkers is it?  How many of your 300 Facebook friends are suffering in silence?  Who in your family is quietly struggling this personal battle?

Thank you all for not ignoring infertility.  Thank you for not overlooking or avoiding what is an invisible, but heartbreaking illness.  Thank you all for understanding that it hurts in so many ways.  Thank you all for your support, love, and hope.

Just… Thank you.


Infertility is a heart-wrenching, faith-questioning, relationship-testing, life-altering experience.  One in eight people in this country is currently walking through hell and back to become a parent.  Whether it’s a friend, a family member, a colleague or yourself, millions are fighting through this difficult fate day in and day out.

Please don’t ignore infertility. 

Please support the one in eight.




Like a Crime Scene In My Pants

April 30th, 2011.  CD1.

Well folks, Aunt Flo is in town for her regularly scheduled visit.

Not that it’s a surprise or anything, but this cycle was so strange, I half-expected her to stay away for a while longer.  Oh well, I suppose.  No help for that.  Moving along to other things…

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