Tuesday, May 14th, 2013. CD3.
Two things happened in the past 24 hours to make me think about my apathy toward this cycle.
One, was reading my horoscope late in the day yesterday, after I had already written the post stating how I just don’t know what I feel toward TTC these days.
You may feel like you are stuck in neutral with an important goal. You put a lot of effort into it in the beginning, and you believed and worked hard and you had great enthusiasm. But when your goal didn’t gain momentum as you hoped it would, you began to feel stuck. And after you felt stuck for a while, you started to lose that enthusiasm, and it was harder to keep going. But you have the power to get back in the groove. If you still want what you wanted as much as you did at the beginning, use this auspicious time to start moving forward again. Find a way to inspire yourself.
As you may know, I am quite interested in astrology; that being said, I typically don’t put a lot of stock in horoscopes, especially those that come from a free app on my phone.
This may not be a sign from the stars, but it was certainly something that made me think, so in that aspect, this horoscope was successful. I realize that yes, I do still want a child, and yes, I am still willing to do whatever it takes to get there. I just need to suck it up and deal with the peaks and valleys of this trip.
The other thing that happened was at my dildo-cam appointment this morning.
My cyst has retreated, and the doc cleared me to move forward with my regularly scheduled hybrid Femara/Gonal F cycle!
I was almost expecting to be disappointed, and maybe a little bit of me was even hoping that I would be put back on the bench to sulk. Though, when she told me that everything looked good to start the meds, I found that I was pleasantly surprised.
I am now even looking forward to getting back in the saddle!
I started thinking while putting my pants back on in the ultrasound room that it’s been since my December/January cycle since I’ve really been on the baby-making train. Wow… that’s a heck of a break for someone who wants a child so badly.
I’m ready. It’s time.
All aboard the Hormone Express. 😉
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