Friday, August 10th, 2012. CD25, 7DPO.
Just like every single two week wait in existence, I have reached the point of crazy.
I am having constant conversations with myself trying to rationalize symptoms that may be caused by a whole heap of things not at all related to pregnancy, and yet I still find myself hopeful.
That is, until I remember that I’ve been hopeful before. And I was wrong then. Very wrong.
Either way, things are happening. This cycle is uncharted territory and I have no idea what to expect.
Here’s the extent of the crazy:
- Nausea – I haven’t exactly tossed my cookies, but for the past 24 hours I have been feeling icky. Kinda like this empty pit in my stomach that food and drink can’t touch sort of feeling. Bleh.
- Strange Temps – my BBT chart is all sorts of weird this cycle. Four straight days of flat temps, followed by a slight rise, and then today it dipped below the coverline. Ummm… What the French, toast?
- Sore Lady Lumps – my boobies feel like hot needles are poking into them. For reals. Don’t poke them, don’t squeeze them, don’t even look at them. They hurt that much, although heightened progesterone seems to do that to me in every medicated cycle.
- HPT Progression – I’ve been testing out the trigger as usual, but I’ve never done so with an Ovidrel trigger before. I expected it to vacate my system sooner, but it’s sticking around. And check out that last test, which was from this morning… Is it just me, or does it maybe look darker than yesterday’s?
And so, you can clearly see that I am crazy.
I can’t help obsessing. I’ve tried to curb it in the past, but the way I operate best seems to be balls-to-the-wall.
Feel everything completely, let go of the control, and let it all happen.
I can always pick up the pieces later…
*sigh*
Well, TGIF, friends! I have a fabulous weekend planned, and I hope you do too! 🙂
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