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Knocked Up: the Details

July 10th, 2014.  16w 0d.

***This is obviously a pregnancy-related and detail heavy post.***

  ***If you’re not in a place to read this right now, then this is your friendly warning.***

I know that there are those who probably want to know some of the down ‘n dirty details of this pregnancy, and those people are about to be either 1. very happy, or 2. very grossed out.

Here comes the TMI, ladies and gents.

I’m guessing we should start at the beginning.  In the first days, I didn’t feel like I was the walking embodiment of the miracle of life or anything.  The fact is that my only real “symptoms” were pretty much exactly what I would have been feeling had Aunt Flo not missed her bus that month.

Breast tenderness, check.  Wee bit o’ cramping, check.  Bloating, check.  Fatigue, check.  Normal stuff.

The only things that were different from what I’d usually experience happened well after I’d confirmed the pregnancy with the doctor’s office and eleventy thousand peesticks.  One was a very real and apparent need for food in the morning.  I was never nauseated per se, but if I didn’t get something – even liquid – into my stomach shortly after getting out of bed, I’d have a killer gag reflex and just feel sort of woozy until I rectified the situation.

The other fun little gift was far less talked about in the world of early pregnancy symptoms, and came in the form of an ungodly amount of cervical mucus.  I’m talking flash flood warning levels here.  SOOOOOOOOOOOOOoooooo GROOOOOOOSSS.

I had a couple of teensy bouts of not-quite-spotting that were like beigey-orange mucus that happened at random times, and of course these occurrences sent me into anxiety spirals from which there was little escape.  I was constantly terrified in that first trimester, and things like this didn’t help.

And while we’re talking about gross things that have evacuated my body, let’s talk about gross things that refuse to evacuate my body.  Around 9 weeks, the doc told me to start taking an iron supplement, because I was slightly anemic.  No biggie, and I figured I’d work on upping iron in my diet as well.  Ever since then, I’ve basically been on Poop Watch 2014.  It’s like a blessed event when it does happen.  I figured out that cherry season (thank you, Michigan!!) is my friend, so that’s been helping.  Prunes?  No sir.  Apricots are just overkill, and we shall never speak of the events that occurred after my last consumption of that devil fruit.  Just let it go.

Around week 9 or 10, we went on a trip to California for a wedding.  In wine country.  Where the vegetarian menus were composed of lovely delicious things covered in OMGDANGER!! soft cheeses.  So that was an adventure, ha.  Flying was  a little nerve-wracking for me, as I wasn’t sure if I’d suddenly develop debilitating nausea on the plane, or if flying would cause me to spot… or worse.  It all turned out to be fine, however, and I managed to have plenty to eat at the veggie-events.

Sometime around 1o or 11 weeks, I dug the home fetal doppler I ordered a year and a half ago out of the bottom of my hope chest.  It had never even been opened, sadly.  I watched numerous videos online of women finding their babies’ heartbeats at like 9 weeks, so I was confident that I could do it, too.

I was wrong.  I failed the first time I tried, and gave up on the grounds that it was too early.  Maybe a week later, in a fit of frustration, I tried it again, and was surprisingly, almost immediately successful.  It was such a great sound to hear – one we hadn’t heard since Jelly Bean’s first ultrasound at 7 weeks.

I’m now a pro at using the doppler at home, and while I know I shouldn’t abuse it, I often listen to baby’s heart before bed as reassurance that he or she is still in there, growing away.  I think that once I’m feeling regular movement, I’ll need the doppler less and less… Until then, it’s my crutch, but it’s helping my anxiety like you wouldn’t believe.

So really, that was it for the first trimester.  The fatigue got worse for a while, and then it got better around maybe 11 weeks.  The weird morning gaggy thing disappeared sometime around then as well, so I’m guessing that was the beginning of my transition into that fabled Second Trimester Honeymoon Phase that people talk about.

Oh, wait.  I mentioned the bloating earlier, but didn’t go into enough detail, clearly.

From about 7 weeks until probably 12, I was so bloated that my pants wouldn’t button – granted, many of them were getting a bit snug before my uterus started to expand, but still…  It was ridiculous and nothing I did changed it.  I was dressing to hide a bump that no one knew about yet.  I  felt like it was obvious to EVERYONE, although the handful of people that knew later on never said anything.

Around 12 weeks, the bloating faded a bit, but by that point my uterus had started its ascent into my abdomen.  By 13 weeks, simply unbuttoning my pants was no longer a comfortable option, and zipping them was becoming laughable as well.  I picked up a Bella Band around 14 weeks, and that’s helped a bit…

Yesterday, just shy of 16 weeks, I bought maternity pants.

Shit’s getting real up in here, folks.

Honestly, I think this little front-pudge looks like more burrito than baby, but I can tell that it’s on its way to a discernible bump.  Soon.  Very soon.

As for the next few milestone moments, what I’m looking forward to most is a tie between finding out this little Bean’s gender, and feeling regular movement.  I’ve noticed a few odd sensations at inconsistent intervals that have felt a bit like rolls I guess, but I have no clue if that was baby movement or sluggish bowel movement.  It’s a little early for that quite yet anyway, as I hear many don’t feel movement until after 20 weeks.

What will be nice is that we should be able to find out baby’s gender before the 20 week anatomy scan.  I had a cervical procedure many  years ago, and because of this, I’m being monitored by ultrasound for cervical shortening every two weeks from 16 to 24 weeks.  My first scan in that series is this Friday, and they’ve said that there’s a chance they’ll be able to tell the gender then.

I’m trying not to get my hopes up, but I’m really, REALLY hoping this kid cooperates and shows the goodies.  I NEED TO KNOW.

So anyway, that’s about it.  I’m not really letting myself get carried away with all the weekly updates and bump pics and that kind of thing because it’s not really me, and because I’m just not in a place yet where I feel I can let myself go with that kind of completely unbridled excitement.

Maybe someday.

I did check out a due date website that emails me things I apparently need to know, and they say that Jelly Bean is approximately the size of an avocado this week.

…Which is appropriate because if one more person asks me what we’ll name this kid, I’m going to tell them Avocado because it’s gender neutral, walk away, and leave them to wonder if I’m serious.

Mwahahaha.

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12 comments on “Knocked Up: the Details

  1. Kim
    July 10, 2014 at 9:27 am #

    Thanks for sharing your info. I am very much identifying with your journey. The so happy yet anxious and in disbelief, for me it was for all nine months. The first time you feel the lo move especially enough for hubs to feel too it makes you feel pretty teriffic!

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  2. A Morning Grouch
    July 10, 2014 at 9:32 am #

    Not to early to feel movement! I felt at around 15 16 weeks with both of mine. Though the gastro distress is oh so real of a possibility as you well know by now.

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  3. lydiaseeks
    July 10, 2014 at 9:56 am #

    Yes, it’s not too early for movement! I felt little bubbles here and there around 15/16 weeks. I was never quite sure it was the little one until later, but now I’m certain it was. I read somewhere that it can feel like a fish swimming around and hitting the walls of the tank and for some reason that was EXACTLY what it felt like to me that early. It was super random though and not regular at all. I was most likely to feel it right before bed, but I think that’s bc I was the most still and my mind was clear. Movement is still one of my favorite things about pregnancy, even now at 39 weeks when she can sort of hurt me. Still totally awesome and reassuring.

    And, um, I switched to maternity pants at 13 weeks 100%. No shame there lady, things can get tight well before the real bump arrives.

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  4. Mel @ there is a higher hope
    July 10, 2014 at 11:43 am #

    Still so excited for you! I hope you can find out the gender at the next scan. I know you are so ready to find out!! XO

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  5. makingababyv
    July 10, 2014 at 1:35 pm #

    I’m 16w4d and am similar to you. I use my doppler every morning to check. It helps so much, especially since my symptoms have faded and I’m not showing. Pants still fit and everything. I’m hoping I graduate to maternity pants soon!

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  6. Rose
    July 10, 2014 at 1:36 pm #

    So as I mentioned before, I’m due 1 day before you! I haven’t really felt any fetal movement during the day normally either. Sometimes though after I do an injection of blood thinner (I have to do it daily in the morning). I’ve noticed that as I’m laying down on my back with ice about an inch below my belly button and to the right or left, that I’ll feel all kinds of movement! I think it’s because of the sudden change in temperature. So anyway, you should give it a try! Maybe you’ll be able to feel something.

    I’ve had two early losses in the past and am super anxious like you even though I’m in the second trimester. What type of Doppler do you use? I’ve been so scared of the anxiety of trying to use one and not finding the heart beat because of being an amateur that I’ve held off.. but now you’re making me reconsider. I’m super jelly that you get to listen to the little ones heart beat! I would LOVE that kind of reassurance.

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    • Rose
      July 10, 2014 at 1:36 pm #

      Oops, I meant 1 day after you.. 12/26!

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  7. Mandy
    July 10, 2014 at 11:28 pm #

    I am glad that you will continue to post about your pregnancy. I have struggles with infertility as well as recurrent miscarriage and pregnancy is so different for me than my friends. Having others who get it to follow along with on the journey is how I survive…almost 30 weeks here and still don’t believe I am pregnant most days even with frequent movement. I too, now in retrospect know I was feeling movement by 16 weeks.

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  8. Kelly
    July 11, 2014 at 8:52 am #

    I have to agree that it’s definitely not too early to feel movement. With my first, I felt those little bubbles around 15 or 16 weeks and it was regular by 20 weeks. With the second, since I knew what it felt like, I swear I felt movement as early as 10 weeks this time. it was surreal. (I’m actually due 2 days after you…12/27! But haven’t said anything online yet.)

    If you don’t already know, at your next u/s, ask where your placenta is. For you to be feeling bubbles now may mean you’re lucky enough to have a placenta either on top or in back, which puts baby right in front, which is the best position for mama (and others) to feel movement.

    But I’m definitely fighting the same battles as you with the poop 😦 For me, nausea = very bad eating + zofran leads to daily meds to get things going. Not fun. I also struggled with low iron the first time around also. And in the end, what helped with both the low iron and the digestion was to really hunker down with my diet. Look into iron rich foods and try to eat those when you can. Many also happen to be high in fiber so they will bring your iron levels back up as well as get things going.

    Congrats again! I am so happy for you 🙂

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  9. Megan
    July 12, 2014 at 12:25 am #

    Haha I agree with the above!! I was feeling my Blueberry (the week that pregnancy email referred to his size as a Blueberry my sister said that was his name) around 16 weeks but I wasn’t sure until around 19 weeks. Then I knew for sure I had been feeling him earlier. I hear the bloating. OMG. It was CRAY CRAY. I was bloating like mad before I even missed my period and actually took a test the day I expected it because I was convinced something was up between that and the unexplained exhaustion. I am on #2 right now (please don’t hate me!) and have found the fatigue and bloating not nearly as bad. In fact the bloating comes and goes and I wasn’t even sure I could believe the positive test because I didn’t FEEL pregnant this time. I don’t know if it makes that much difference with repeated pregnancies or if it has to do with the difference between being pregnant with a boy vs a girl? Hubby would be quite happy if it’s a girl this time. 🙂
    I started following you because a friend posted your blog to her Facebook but I haven’t experienced fertility problems. But I am so very happy for you and excited to follow your journey to motherhood!!! I spent several years prior to marriage unsure if I would have fertility problems (suspected endometriosis which is apparently NOT true) and feeling like a ticking time bomb if I didn’t get married and try for babies ASAP that I would lose my chance completely.
    Also if by any chance my friend or anybody else who knows me in real life is reading this MUM IS THE WORD about my being preggers again hah. It is not Facebook official yet.

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  10. meglettx
    July 12, 2014 at 12:31 am #

    Haha I agree with the above!! I was feeling my Blueberry (the week that pregnancy email referred to his size as a Blueberry my sister said that was his name) around 16 weeks but I wasn’t sure until around 19 weeks. Then I knew for sure I had been feeling him earlier. I hear the bloating. OMG. It was CRAY CRAY. I was bloating like mad before I even missed my period and actually took a test the day I expected it because I was convinced something was up between that and the unexplained exhaustion. I am on #2 right now (please don’t hate me!) and have found the fatigue and bloating not nearly as bad. In fact the bloating comes and goes and I wasn’t even sure I could believe the positive test because I didn’t FEEL pregnant this time. I don’t know if it makes that much difference with repeated pregnancies or if it has to do with the difference between being pregnant with a boy vs a girl? Hubby would be quite happy if it’s a girl this time. 🙂
    I started following you because a friend posted your blog to her Facebooks. I am so very happy for you and excited to follow your journey to motherhood!!!
    Also if by any chance my friend or anybody else who knows me in real life is reading this MUM IS THE WORD about my being preggers again hah. It is not Facebook official yet.

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  11. Tanya Littleberry
    July 19, 2014 at 2:47 pm #

    go ask for liquid iron in a health store. It’s basically like mineral water and it has like 30 times less iron – cause in liquid form your body absorbs it better (in solid form most of the pill goes to waste, making you terribly constipated).

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