In the past year, I have grown so much.

I’ve learned more about myself than I ever expected, both in good ways, and in bad.

Thirty-one has brought me from grasping at straws with my doctors to a new place where I feel confident in my care and treatment.

Thirty-one brought me my first confirmed pregnancy.

Thirty-one also took that pregnancy from me, and taught me what it truly means to lose.

While I am blessed to have so much support and to have had the chance to really explore my feelings over the past year, I am not sad to see it go.

I love that my birthday is in December.Β  It’s right near Thanksgiving, Christmas, and the end of the year…

My birthday is, in so many ways, an ending and a beginning.Β  A chance to start fresh.

I just get a little more of a head start than the rest of you who have to wait until New Year’s.Β  πŸ˜‰

Thirty-one is done.

Thirty-two is now.

This is my year.Β  I know not to put undue expectations onto life after so much time and grief has passed, but I just have this feeling.

I feel like 2013 is going to be the best year of my life, and I will be thirty-two for most of it.

And so, bring it on, Thirty-Two.

I’m ready.Β  πŸ™‚

7 comments on “Thirty-Two

  1. cassiedash
    December 2, 2012 at 10:21 am #

    Happy birthday, Tracy! Hoping that thirty-two is truly the best year of your life.


  2. Shelley
    December 2, 2012 at 10:30 am #

    Happy birthday! Hope 32 is everything and more.


  3. newtorontomom
    December 2, 2012 at 12:31 pm #

    32 is the best. I got preggo and gave birth – all while being 32. Cheers to new beginnings! Happy birthday Tracy πŸ™‚


  4. B
    December 2, 2012 at 1:45 pm #

    Happy birthday!!! Here’s to 32! And to 2013. I have a good feeling about both 32 and 2013 for you.


  5. Kelly
    December 2, 2012 at 2:11 pm #

    Wishing you the very best this year!


  6. Theresa
    December 2, 2012 at 2:58 pm #

    Happy birthday!!!


  7. Amber
    December 3, 2012 at 8:27 pm #

    Happy late birthday!! Love you!!


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