Monday, October 15th, 2012.  22DPMc.

I got the call from Dr. K’s office this afternoon… My hormone levels have finally dropped to zero.

How appropriate that this day, Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day, is the day the HCG is finally out of my system.

It’s a bittersweet day.

I’m sad that my pregnancy is over, and that the last physical remnants of it are gone; however, I am happy to officially be back in the “trying” category.

After our one cycle off, we will be actively trying to conceive again, meds and all… Back on the horse, as it were.

Doors and windows… still some hallways.

I hope that a year from now finds us celebrating a pregnancy, or a cuddling a baby, and not remembering more than one angel that never made it home.

Today is a day for remembrance, reflection, and hope for joy in the future.

I’ll light my candle tonight at 7pm, and I invite you all to do the same.

I will never forget the baby we loved and lost, and will never quit trying to give our angel some earthly siblings.



2 comments on “Zero

  1. Ashley
    October 15, 2012 at 7:50 pm #

    “It has been said, ‘time heals all wounds.’ I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never gone.” ― Rose Kennedy


  2. Amber Rose
    October 17, 2012 at 10:41 am #

    NEVER…NEVER…NEVER Stop trying!!!!!


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