The doctor didn’t see what he wanted.
At first, he didn’t see anything at all.
After a while though, he located something he thought was a gestational sac, although it was very small.
He expected to see something measuring about 10mm today, but what he found barely measured 5mm.
He expected to maybe even see the tiny flicker of a heartbeat.
There was none.
He wants to see me back again on Monday for a follow-up ultrasound, and if Gummy Bear hasn’t made it to 10mm by that point, I’ve basically been prepped on my options for miscarriage.
I have a tiny picture. It’s sad and empty.
I keep hoping my bladder was too full, or my uterus was too tilted.
I keep hoping the doctor was wrong.
He was nice about it, though… He gave me some small shreds of hope. His face told me what I needed to know, however.
I’m preparing for the worst, and hoping for a miracle.
Actually, preparing and hoping are on tap for tomorrow… for today, I’m just numb and sad and too upset to even eat my feelings.
*sigh*
Why can’t this be easy?
Just Stop Trying and It Will Happen... 
Don’t “eat” your feelings. Feel them all ,of your hopes and dreams MATTER.xoxo
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😦 oh Tracy. I don’t want to feed you any BS, but keep in mind that accurate measurements are very difficult when baby is so tiny. I will continue to hope and pray for your miracle. Big hugs!
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…I have had this experience twice….both natural cycles before I started treatment, all I can offer is to let yourself feel them all, it will take time, and keep hope alive…
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GROW GUMMY BEAR GROW!!!
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“When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.” It will happen for you, Tracy!
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I’m so sorry things didn’t go as well as you’d hoped today. There’s still hope and I’m praying hard that gummy grows before Monday!
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I’m sorry it was not better news but don’t lose hope just yet. And the others are right, let yourself feel. I’ve heard the stories before of lots of growth in a short time and I really hope that you turn out to be one of those stories. I’ve got everything crossed for you. (((hugs)))
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I’m so sorry. Fingers and toes are crossed for a miracle.
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I am going to be thinking about you all week until you go back to that doctor. Please take care of yourself during the wait.
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I usually just lurk, but wanted to tell you how sorry I am that the news wasn’t better. Fingers and toes crossed for you.
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Waiting is so so hard, but all of it is hard. I hate that it can’t just go perfectly. I’ll be thinking of you.
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I know today sucked, but its “normal” to only see a sac at 6 weeks…most doctors wait until 8 weeks to do an ultrasound for that reason… I am hoping and praying (you know that you’re always in my thoughts) that the lil gummy bear is growing!! Feel all the emotions and go with them, if you feel like punching the wall..do it. If you feel like bursting out in tears..do it! Let yourself feel. XOXO
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I’m so sorry you didn’t get better news today. I really hope things are better on Monday.
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So sorry you didn’t get better news today. Praying that everything looks perfect on Monday. Until then, take care of yourself. Today you are pregnant, and you love your baby. (((HUGS)))
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Thinking of you. What a difficult day. I wish it weren’t so. I am holding on to hope for Monday. Praying you get your miracle. Hugs to you.
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Sending you lots of prayers!
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Ugh. How frustrating! Why can’t things be simpler? I am praying SO HARD you get good news on Monday. Take care of yourself.
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Oh, Tracy, I’m sorry the news wasn’t what we were all wishing for. But I’m not giving up hope! I’ll be praying all weekend for you. ~ hugs ~
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I am so so sorry you did not get that joyous first appointment today. It makes me so mad how hard all of this is…it truly is not fair. I am hoping and praying that Monday brings your gummy bear where s/he needs to be. Thinking of you. Xoxo.
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I’m sorry about this, hopefully you will have good news on Monday! xxx
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sending light and love, hoping for the best.
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I am sorry that today was disappointing. I know the feeling. I hope things turn around for Monday.
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I really hope that things get better! I’ll be thinking of you.
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This is not fair! I don’t want to give you false hope but maybe it is too early. This happened to me with Trevor they saw a sac but thought it was empty, I had to wait a very long week!! Thankfully it was worth the wait. I’m praying that is the case for you!
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I ache for your gummy bear to be safe! Hugs. We are here – talk and share.
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