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Radio Silence 2.0

This whole triphasic chart thing has me totally worked up.

I’m making myself so crazy that I can’t eat, can’t sleep, and can’t focus.  I spent the whole night Googling scenarios in which I could be pregnant, and scenarios in which I could be a completely non-pregnant nutcase.

This may be counter-intuitive, and it may make a few people crazy, but I think I need to step back for a couple of days.

Hear me out:

If I keep speculating at this anxiety-inducing pace, I’m going to hyperventilate and lose all my hair by Beta Day.

If I do end up pregnant, I will want a day or two to digest the information, tell the family, and generally have every manner of freak-out imaginable.

If I’m NOT pregnant, I will need a few days to recover.  This cycle is by the book, and every sign is pointing to pregnancy.  That’s what makes me so nervous and hesitant to believe it.  I need to stop thinking about what could be, and just focus for now on what is.

If I back off for a few days, I can attempt to live a somewhat normal life and then my fate will be in the hands of the lab tech who calls with my test results.

Trust me, when the day comes that I finally get that BFP, you all will know right away.  I just have too much invested in this cycle, and really need to back away a little to preserve my sanity.

That being said, here’s the plan:

I will stop testing.  The beta will be the definitive test.

I will try to stop analyzing my BBT chart (I can’t just NOT take my temp, lol).

I will report back here with beta results as soon as I have them.  🙂

I know this is rather unlike me to back off when things get crazy, but I’ve been told a lot lately that worrying and speculation will not get me any more or less pregnant.

Thank you all for understanding, and I will be back soon!  Regardless whether the news is bad or good, I appreciate your support, cheerleading, and co-speculation!  😉

See you in a couple of days!

 

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10 comments on “Radio Silence 2.0

  1. Lo
    August 13, 2012 at 10:32 pm #

    I’ll be here eagerly awaiting your news! BUT take all the time and space you need. We’ll be here waiting. Love you, friend!

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    • Tracy
      August 13, 2012 at 10:40 pm #

      Thank you, dear friend! 🙂

      I’m just a POAS-addict who needs a couple days of rehab, LOL. I promise results as soon as I get them, though – hopefully Thursday or Friday!

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  2. babylopez8410
    August 13, 2012 at 11:16 pm #

    Lookin forward to your update! Good luck!

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  3. B
    August 14, 2012 at 12:49 am #

    I think it’s smart to take a few days off, especially if this cycle results in a BFP. I know I needed a few days (well more like two weeks!) to process my BFP before I shared with Twitter/blogland. While we look forward to those magical two lines so much, they also bring with them new fears and anxieties. That said, you may find that it’s easier to blog your way through those, so don’t feel bad if you go back on your word about this blogging break!
    I have my fingers crossed so tightly for you. I mean, I always hope for BFPs for my blogging/Twitter friends, but you have an especially special (double special!) place in my heart because we’ve cycled together so many times over the last year or so. I want this for you so very much!

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  4. Julie Conley
    August 14, 2012 at 3:09 am #

    …all fingers and toes are crossed tight for you, friend!

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  5. b
    August 14, 2012 at 6:28 am #

    Will be looking forward to hearing your news! Hopefully the break will help you keep calm and make a nice nest for a baby to burrow!

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    • Deanna Busse
      August 14, 2012 at 8:27 am #

      I totally get this! if you do get the results you want you and mike are going to need time to process/ celebrate! I will be waiting to hest the great or not so great news when you are ready to share! Praying for a positive bfp, and if so sending good sticky vibes your way!

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  6. Tracy
    August 14, 2012 at 9:37 am #

    Thank you all for being so understanding! I’m making myself sick about this, and I KNOW it’s because everything has gone so perfectly this cycle.

    I’m walking a thin line between gearing up for great news and an epic letdown. I will keep you all posted and you can expect results from me this week! ❤

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  7. KelBel
    August 14, 2012 at 9:59 am #

    Keeping my fingers crossed for you! Looking forward to your update. 🙂

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  8. Kimmy
    August 15, 2012 at 3:27 pm #

    I hate that these challenges have taken women who are regularly upbeat and positive and make us cautiously awaiting the shoe to drop…good or bad news. Fingers crossed hope you have awesome results!!!

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