This whole triphasic chart thing has me totally worked up.
I’m making myself so crazy that I can’t eat, can’t sleep, and can’t focus. I spent the whole night Googling scenarios in which I could be pregnant, and scenarios in which I could be a completely non-pregnant nutcase.
This may be counter-intuitive, and it may make a few people crazy, but I think I need to step back for a couple of days.
Hear me out:
If I keep speculating at this anxiety-inducing pace, I’m going to hyperventilate and lose all my hair by Beta Day.
If I do end up pregnant, I will want a day or two to digest the information, tell the family, and generally have every manner of freak-out imaginable.
If I’m NOT pregnant, I will need a few days to recover. This cycle is by the book, and every sign is pointing to pregnancy. That’s what makes me so nervous and hesitant to believe it. I need to stop thinking about what could be, and just focus for now on what is.
If I back off for a few days, I can attempt to live a somewhat normal life and then my fate will be in the hands of the lab tech who calls with my test results.
Trust me, when the day comes that I finally get that BFP, you all will know right away. I just have too much invested in this cycle, and really need to back away a little to preserve my sanity.
That being said, here’s the plan:
I will stop testing. The beta will be the definitive test.
I will try to stop analyzing my BBT chart (I can’t just NOT take my temp, lol).
I will report back here with beta results as soon as I have them. 🙂
I know this is rather unlike me to back off when things get crazy, but I’ve been told a lot lately that worrying and speculation will not get me any more or less pregnant.
Thank you all for understanding, and I will be back soon! Regardless whether the news is bad or good, I appreciate your support, cheerleading, and co-speculation! 😉
See you in a couple of days!