Friday, May 18th, 2012. CD25, 11DPIUI.
Soooo… I really thought I was dealing with this cycle better than cycles past.
I had a plan for this Two Week Torture Wait… I’ve been staying busy, not paying such close attention to symptoms, and generally not planning for any outcome of the cycle – positive or negative.
And then?
And then the crazy came to town.
I don’t know who flipped the bitch-switch, but whoa. Today has been intense.
I know part of it is due to lack of sleep… I should have gone to bed earlier last night, and I just didn’t sleep very restfully despite having had an hour-long massage yesterday.
All I know is that I woke up this morning with my crankypants on, and as soon as I was vertical, I realized I had a killer ear ache. I don’t think I’ve had one of those since I was a kid! It was weird, and it only lasted an hour, but it was enough to make my day start out kinda iffy.
The husband drove me to work today so we could drop off his car at the shop for some minor repairs, so it was nice to be able to see him in the morning. That helped.
It also helped that today at lunchtime, we held a “baby shower” for a coworker who recently discovered an injured kitten in her driveway, took said kitten to the vet where one of his legs was amputated, and then adopted said kitten into her family! It was adorable, and I swear half the office was in attendance. What a spoiled little tripod that kitty’s going to be. 🙂
Okay, so by now I’m in a slightly better mood. The husband is taking me to a baseball game tonight, and while I don’t really care so much about the sport, I do love me some hot dogs. And sunshine. And boys in tight pants who bend over a lot. So there’s that.
As for the rest of the crazy, I think I finally started symptom-stalking. Or maybe lack-of-symptom-stalking…
I have almost no breast tenderness this cycle! That has been one of the worst, and most persistent side-effects of the Prometrium, and this month? Nothin’.
Totally weird.
There’s also the hunger. And thirst. Could be from the progesterone, I know…
The fatigue. Totally from the progesterone. Strike that one from the record.
I’ve been kind of sniffly/sneezy/stuffy lately. Along with that random, drive-by ear ache. But it’s allergy season in the Great White North, and though I’ve not suffered from them in the past, it would make sense that my age has caught up with me in that regard.
My back hurts. Real down low-like. Even after getting a massage… I’m just hoping that’s not Aunt Flo knocking at the door.
I just want this to work. I feel like if I want it too badly, I will somehow jinx myself. I feel like if I act too nonchalant, I will jinx myself.
I wish I knew where the word jinx came from. It’s fun to say, type, and look at… Hmm…
See?
Crazypants.
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